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How We’ve Been Misunderstood By Ourselves And Loved By The World

From a young age, Philip Seymour Hoffman has been described as: “witty, intelligent and beautiful.” But this is not enough to define him or his life. Hoffman has also become controversial and polarizing for some because of his involvement with drugs, alcohol and a violent, abusive lifestyle. I, for one, believe he is one of the most unique and misunderstood actors of our time because of his deep spiritual and spiritual beliefs.

He was always a very private person because his father, Walter, was a very intense man. He and Phil were very close, but when anyone attempted to have a relationship with him, he would get very angry and try to destroy, basically destroy, anyone close to him. He was very sadistic and he loved the thrill of violence. He was always a very violent person. Even when people asked him if he was a good actor, he would say, “If you can take out a man, you can take out a man.” He was always very angry. He lived by himself. He worked for a big bank but he would always go where he felt like, he would never go downtown. He would live in his hotel room or an apartment.

So, even though he was well liked in his personal life, I always felt like there is a lot of conflict going on and people are never very clear on what he was doing for his films. I think there are people who think Hoffman is a bad person. I say do not let this stop you. He is certainly one of those rare artists that has influenced a generation of artists.

I think Philip’s parents are good people that went through some horrible things themselves. I feel very sorry for them. I was lucky enough to know both of them. Philip’s mother died when I was very, very young. He was very upset when people asked him if he was a good musician. The answer was, “No, but if you can play a little bit, you can play a little bit.” I think Philip would have been a musician and I think his first love would have been music. I don’t think he was so good with words at that point in his life. He knew the chords and he played them well but he is a very talented musician. At a young age, he had a musical talent but he was not so great with words. He did very well on the violin, but I don’t think he was a great singer or anything. And he loved being around cars. He was a good driver because he would get so upset if he didn’t have a car.

Philip was a very serious young man, but at the same time, he loved the music and the showbusiness. It was always sort of a dream in his family to have a concert of his music. Of course, when it came to Phil, he was always the headliner. It was just him and his father. They would go on tour together. It just was not an option. And I have so many friends and acquaintances and family that had Phil as a rock star father. It was a very difficult relationship at times.

I used to talk to him about his life and he would mention how he was a real quiet guy. He was never loud. He has one of the biggest and most beautiful eyes I have ever known. They had this great beauty going on his face.

He has a real sense of humor and I think that is what people love about him and why so many people have fallen for him. Of course, one of the things that is a big misconception of Hoffman is his drug use. He had a big problem with his alcoholism and he was very very angry and violent when he drank too much or when he started using drugs.

He is one of those people that has said in the past that he has a huge interest in the psychology of spirituality, but I think there is so much more to him than that because he cares about the world and how he fits in and how it works.

I think Philip was influenced by many of the people that he hung out with, especially people from the jazz world. He loved to listen to Miles Davis. He liked Miles Davis’s music even when he didn’t know much about him and I think Philip just absorbed and absorbed in his life what he could because that was his father. And people ask him, “Phil, do you think you could ever act in a music video or do whatever you want to do or get back onto this stage?” He says “No.” He says, “The only way I can ever do my work is I have to be completely on my own.” And that is true.

I was always afraid of him and I think we all were. I still am afraid to this day.